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01:23 am: first poast of 2007
well well well, where to begin; its been like 7 or so months since i last poasted anything and shitloads has happened i dont even know where to begin so i wont even try to recap i will just assure all that things are going wonderfully i am probably the happiest i have ever been in my life. I am doing lots of tattooing, i am comfortable and content spiritualy, (I dont have a job right now) but thats ok i will soon:D I feel as though i finally am takeing charge of my life and am pursuing what i love...tattoos. I don't feel like a corporate warehouse drone anymore and that I'm doing nothing with my life, Yeska and I will be celebrateing our 2 year aniversary in acouple months and shes now looking for work to so as soon as we have jobs we can move out which will rock. So ya thats bout it Im poor but happy which is how i would have it anyday:D:D:D:D

01:38 pm: stompen in da woods... whos with me?
hey all you hippies and ravers out there whos planing on going to stompen this year its july 14-16 we are going to have a tight pirate cove going on this year so if you are down and wana be in the pirate crew let me know...and if...well every one should go its going to be savage....much love yesie plur

12:12 am: hey everybody howst it goin sorry ive been gone so long lot of shit been happenin in my little world and have had absolutely no time but heres the short and skinny. moved out, and in with my girl and my brother and thats going great, my car died, not so great, but my girl just got her check from her car accedent and can afford to fix her car, good thing, and my boss may sell me his car really cheep, anuther good thing, oh and had to re-roof moms house....long storry. OH OH OH!!!!!!!! nov. 11 is the party wite out at studio B and its gunna be Yessies B-Day party so please please please i hope everyone can come and wish her a happy B-day :D :D :D :D i love you all hope to see ya soon

08:31 pm: ........hello...........
hey all first off i much offer a blanket apology to all that have called me or left a message or something that i have not called back alot of shit is going on right now and im sorting shit out so im sorry im not trying to ignor anyone im just really fucking busy....on a sad note my uncle who i was very close died acouple days ago which has added a ton of uneeded stress plus ive hit a rocky patch in my relationship so my head feels like a hornets nest of emotions but this is life right ive learned a ton about myself and that im not really who i thought i was :) but thats good and a part of life i got a couple of new tattoos, the tattoo convention is next week and hempfest is the weekend after so this month is fuckin hella busy but im sure ill manage somehow :) i love you all specially my yessie be good kids

12:53 pm: 13 fuck post
why do i do this, every fucking time its the same shit i do to myself i am so fucking bad with money its fucking rediculus i have a full time job and am broke WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! is it so hard to get throuhg my thick skull that i need to start saveing to ever get out of the house and on with my life how could i ever expect to live on my own and pay bills when i cant even pay the meger bills i have now!!! this is stupid im pissed FUCKING PISSED i wanna brake something destroy something cuase myself pain in some way and feel productive at the same time. This the same fucking thing i do to myself everytime ive been doing this to myself all my fucking life and yet here i am still fucking doing it WHY!!! i have no fucking clue im such a fucking retard when it comes to money FUCK!!!! now i have to ask my mom for some again just proveing to her that im inept at takeing care of myself and i will here that same dissapointed tone in her voice FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!! im out

03:25 am: awake
why dose it always seem i get insomia at the worst time and at the oddest moments im tired and sore both physiclly and mentally and wish for morphious's sweet kiss but im sitting here running through movie after movie drawing surfing the net and wondering why hes passed my inviteing eyes oh well the night goes on. it seems every day i go through the motions and make my clockwise turn and perpetuate the motion of industry and continue this organic machine called life, i wonder how long this portion of the turn will last forgive me if i seem ungratefull for i am not i am in a much happier place in my life than i have ever been. so much is changeing and happening, i must admit i get a bit overwhelmed and with the stress i tend to retreat and hide for a bit so please my lovelies do if i ever seem distant always assume i am just overwhelmed and with gental coaxing will come out sortly :) on a compleatly different note i finally fixed my car it looked like it was the ignition moduel (the computer chip for my car) but in the process of replaceing it broke something else which i found out today was my ECT (the electronic cooling something or other) so now i have to replace that so YAY! OH and just becuase I LOVE YOU YESSIE!!!<3 anywho Im done rambling for the evening so night all

07:18 am: B-day poast
Yeah its my birthday :D i am now 22 years old YAY!!!! actually its kinda funny cuase im past all the exiteing birthdays so this one feels kinda weird. oh well :D

10:08 am: ever one loves yeska
hi friends its me yeska/yessie every one that konws me souls come find me on here...mine is yeskazdkaid

the party was so tight i cant wate till the next one !!!!!!!

12:23 pm: to all true raver/stompers
stompers map point
206.853.2381 thats the info line number y'all, good luck, hope to see you all there, .

01:30 am: the weekend and my meltdown are drawing closer
i cant wait for this weekend....no seriously i cant wait it feels like my head is going to pop. Two many things are up in the air for me to deal with all waiting and suspended untill thursday when i get paid and can breath again. i hate this i always do this to myself i spend my money frivalesly (i know i murdered that word) and end up sweeting bullets to get things done. i alsways do it and i always end up saying the same shit im saying now, but oh well life goes on right :D and things will sort themselves out in time and things will be ok i know this for i have learned this lesson time and time again yet i cant help but feel the stress of uncertainty. i cant wait for stompin and to see all my friends :D :D :D i love you all <3 anywho im going to bed now cuase im really tired and the tv's broken so catch ya all later :) OH! and i have my cell phone back now so for those who have tried to call me and never got me sorry :( it broke but its back now:) but i have no ones number so if i had your number assume i dont anymore unless you have already talked to me in the last week then i have it again :) ok night :) :) :)

05:15 pm: lookie what i found
found this on the nwt about stompin in da woods 3 not sure what the hell is going on or if the guys from klubstompers are going to poast it up on the main page but heres the heads up

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
Since this event has been in the media so much we are worried that people we don't want to come are going to try and show up.

Thus filling the capacity before the people we are actually doing this event for, arrive.

This is now a private event, Klubstompers members only!

You can pick up your "Klubstompers membership card" at Platinum Records in Seattle and Portland , starting Saturday June 25th in the afternoon.

The price is the same, $30 for your membership card, and that entitles you to free entrance into Stompin In Da Woods 3!!!

We will be posting up directions to a map point the day before the event, where you can pick up your bracelet, and a map to the venue, if you show up at the venue with out your bracelet, you will not get in.

Just a mere technicality nothing more. Everything is still a go.

This membership card will also entitle you to discounts on our future events, along with other future benefits.

02:15 am: :D :) @_@ lol funny faces
for some reason i cant focus im sick of the tv nothing i draw is comeing out right so i turn to my beloved interweb :) well kidies its only 11 MORE DAYS TILL STOMPING IN THE WOODS!!!!!! and its funny cuase this year im actually prepareing give me a shout if you going k :D :D i hope to see all my friends there sorry ive been absent for so long its a much needed hiadus from drama and the like :) i got a rais at work YAY more money ! anywho im doing good it was a really good weekend and everyday is good that brings me closer to stomping lol i love you all and hope to hear, see, talk, run in to, hear from, run across, bump in to, or meet very soon :D nighty night

02:14 am: just a quick note before bed
As life goes on we get a chance from time to time to see the ones we care for grown and changed into someone totally differnt from when they were younger i have been blessed with knowing two outstanding indiviuals in which i helped along their developement and are graduateing this year one is my good and dear friend Richie who ive known now for what seems like ages and has surpassed any hopes i had for the boy, and the other is my brother Jake who despite a couple worrie filled years has become a better man than i :) im really proud of you bro and though it may not seem like much seeing you walk will mean a lot to me.

I wish you both the best in whatever you do :D


no i go to sleep cuase im as the english say....totally nackered night all



PS: yessie if you read this before i call i will call u in the morning cuase i need some sleep you know why ;) lol

12:37 am: aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh
hey love I hope you read this babe im sorry i havent called you i just got home a little bit ago and tried to call twice but im to tired and cant remember your nomber i know the numbers in it i just cant get the order :( and i cant find my bit of paper that has it on it :( so im going to bed and i will try again in the morning im really sorry babe :(

oh and to everyone else hello how are you i hope everyones well im extreamly tired so im going to bed now.....night

04:58 am: kill my head for its confusing me
this week is already pissing my off and giving me a headach it seems that all my plans get ruined by something mainly family or work all i want to do is see my girl spend some time with her but no i am constently denied or its put on hold. and every time the worst part is telling her that its been put on hold for even though she says its alright i can hear in her voice its not and i feel as though i've let her down and i hate that feeling. I never want to let you down yessie i love you so much, you make me so happy....sorry im pissed, depressed and rambling there is to much shit going on right now in my brain im going to work now bye

10:15 pm: :D live, laugh, and love:D
so I've been kinda ignoreing this recently cuase im tired and really dont feel like typeing shit lol anywho spen the weekend with my love in the woods in a tent smokeing and drinking and throwing up...lol sorry babe it was still a blast though :D i also went and saw unleashed the new jet li movie, which i highly recomend and is a great film. On a more personal note im doing well, my life finally feels like its moving forward and on im doing better for myself watching what i eat and exerseing more so im felling good i hope everyone else is doing well also :D

12:20 pm:

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mamoru Kuga

10:32 pm: i want a refund on this week
i have been sick all week then when i finally get some medicine and get better i have a alergic reaction to the meds and brake out in hives over 80% of my body and all i want to do is see my love but it just seems like everything is trying to keep me from her. it feels like my mind is going to explode, i feel trapped, imprisoned in this house by my poverty and poor helth with only the happieness of visitors to lighten my day and the hope of eventuall escape Yessie i love you i want to see you right now im sorry i spend my money poorly and am broke and im sorry ive been so sick i love you babe

the walls outside
and walls within
forms the cage
that keeps me in
witha a small square of hope
that beams in the truth
freedoms not dead
but can be reached
through want and will
so i take the step and clear my head
and brake the walls within

12:38 pm:

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